I have refrained from blogging for some god-knows-what reason, but today I just couldn't resist myself. I needed a place to vent and who better than my 'never complaining coz I didn't bother' blog :P

As you transcend through time and gradually get pulled into new dimensions of life, you are supposed to widen your horizon and gain knowledge in the process. Basically, you are trying to become wise devoid of the gray hair. New school, new college, new work place, new room mates, new colleagues, neighbours and what not? So many different people. Vagaries of nature. Although it is quite fascinating, it actually makes me stop and ponder - Damn, I didn't know there were anomalies such as him/her. And it only gets worse. I can literally count the number of sensible, non-cheap, kind and generous people. Those with character, personality, confidence and attitude narrows the list down a little bit, scratch that - it narrows down the list to single digits.

Everyone/everything has boiled down to money, pompousness, materialistic comforts, physical pleasures, promiscuity, arrogance, convenience and last but definitely not the least insanity.

Words like 'love' and 'happiness' remain romantic illusions. These words have been used so often that the very essence of it has been lost in translation. Everyone claims to have it, but secretly yearn for a pinch of the real deal. I don't know when they will realize that you can NEVER find it especially if you're looking in the wrong places.

Its like trying to find ice cream in a parched desert.
a) Water is a luxury, ice cream is distant.
b) If you do find it, its a bloody illusion.

I am not sure why this is bugging me so much off late, particularly when weed like this has been prevalent for quite sometime now. But, these are things I just cannot digest. I think it's the scripted reality shows, jaded teenagers and retarded young adults I see.


Dictionary for the modern age

1. Relationships = Car, good looks, money, pubs
2. Confidence = Abuse, skimpy clothes and disrespect
3. Independent = Detach from parents, NEVER visit them, call them names, party, zero accountability
4. Money = Life
5. Charity = Buying your new friend a drink
   
6. Love = Dejavu
7. Attitude = Confidence+Independence (according to new dictionary)
8. Marriage = An intertwined relationship with love, money and convenience

Oh! and Btw, 'I love you' is the most abused line. EVER

I am 25 years old and I am not a fucking saint. But I am no commercialized human being either. I am in limbo. But, this limbo is not so bad.

The cellphone

Even though we have grown up to become adults in our 20 somethings, we really havent changed in some aspects. Particularly when it comes to a cellphone. A cellphone is always that new bright and shiny toy which we like to show off for a week after we buy it, but soon there will be that rich kid who will buy a more cooler phone and steal your thunder. Damn the rich kids!

I am no different. My story is not about the rich kid, its about how long the brighness and shinyness lasted. My old phone was on its deathbed. Poor thing had to be put to rest. After the 1000s of times it has been thrown down, it splattered into pieces and still put up a brave front when I glued the pieces together and expected it to work. I have spilt juice, sambhar, water and different kinds of food on it. Yet it never complained. My loyal buddy. Unfortunately his time was up. Therefore me and my friend headed out to find a replacement and get a bargain on the old one.

I had no particular model in mind, I just wanted something asap. We liked a particular Sony Ericsson phone. But we didnt get a good bargain on the old one. After climbing up and down a few shops, I got my bargain. Before they realized that my old phone doesn't get charged and the camera has conked and there is a deadly virus in the phone, I grabbed my new one and ran!

I was beaming. I stole a bargain and I had a bright and shiny new toy on 31st December 2009. Cool! I kept parading with it, showed off to whoever came my way. Messages started flooding my inbox as the new year drew closer. Then at 1:00 am, lightning struck. in a bad way. I peeked into my phone to see the messages when I saw the blank screen staring at me. A blank white screen which refused to show any sign of activity. My heart sank. My brand new phone - conked off within 5 hours of purchase. I thought it was a one time thing, consoled myself, just to see that it repeated itself every 8 hours. WTF !! @#$% !! My new toy/phone didnt last a day let alone last a week! S.O.B !!

Now as I wait patiently for a replacement which I am almost sure I wont get, I have a super fundoo old toy/brick/phone. No camera, no silent mode, half the buttons dont work, and it switches off by itself whenever it feels like. Haunted phone.

Bright, shiny new toy my ass!

X-(

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The new year comes in with a BANG!

2010 is going to be one hell of a year for me. Lots of fireworks to explode at home - people who know me will know what the fireworks are for, as for the rest of you - assume the worst.

Putting aside the bad news, I want to talk a bit about my resolutions for the year. I normally do not make any. But this year, like I said is going to be different. So here goes nothing -

1) I am not a runner. I have pathetic levels of stamina. Running 200 mts = marathon for me. So do the math. But, I have vowed to start running everyday this year. Why go to a gym and pay some 15k and make lame excuses for not working out? I need to lose 4 kgs of weight and tone up. Flat tummy, here I come!

2) Thanks to my cousin's influence, I am going to cut down on sweets and chocs and biscuits and everything divine. Glowing skin, here I come!

3) I don't have an ounce of music in me. I appreciate rock but I have no idea what chords are or the technicalities behind music. I have decided to learn to play the drums. I don't care how stupid I look. But I will learn it. Music, here I come!

Three resolutions, I am not too sure of #2 though. It's painful. Apart from my highly animated personal life, lets see how well I upkeep my resolutions.

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